I didn't think I'd be where I am now so soon. I didn't think my old life would ever go away fast enough so I could have the opportunity to grow with someone who expresses the want to be with me and spend time with me. I can't say I've experienced that before because my past relationship was a joke; it was all high school and I didn't really want a relationship in the first place. I guess my problem was that I dated guys I should have just stayed friends with and kept at a distance. I made that mistake with my last relationship. There were a few reasons why we were together but initially it was to keep my parents off my ass about the guy before him (he was 5 years older). I think about how I should have spent my teenage years and it wasn't anything how I wanted it. I wasted my time with guys instead of working towards what I really wanted--freedom. It's something I struggle with even now; being married and tied down with a kid. I want to be free and do what I please. But I suppose I at least have someone to share it with and he wants the same in return. I pretty much consider my life before this time a year ago as a load of bull shit and I'm so glad it's all over. I don't miss it. I went through a period of time where all I did was think about how much I wish I could have it back. I'm pretty sure that letting go of all the people who were a part of my life then was a good idea and Aaden has a great father. I'm a happier person. I have an amazing son and a great husband. Life is nothing how I planned but that's okay.